river still flowing or flowing still?

monotonic or monotonous?
still flowing or flowing still?
change clothes or clothes changed?

half empty or half full?
dead on the spot or spotted dead?
clear vision or vision cleared?
drunk or drank?

im standing on a river sabi nila
is it flowing still or still flowing?

im walking on an empty lane
is it deserted or did they desert me?

just the voice?

just the voice and i mellow
and when you told me you couldnt say it
because it means more than that
i melted on the spot
more than marvin liboon
pawned and sprawled by my side

i will do what you have asked me to do
i will follow your every command
not because you asked for it
but because i want to do it

i should be deleting my last post because of this
but no
what i felt should remain there
what i felt should be read

because this is my blog

my salad of emotions

now i do believe how hard it is to feel for another
now i do believe how hard it is to express
how hard it is to be hurt
because i've been hurt before
a lot of times
very painful times
sometimes i just want things to stop
i just want to be somebody else
be somewhere else
be gone

but there are things that bring my hopes up
there are people who do
this is when someone catches my heart
takes hold of it
hold it very tight
its painful at times
but i seem to enjoy every moment it happens
because i believe in the person to never let go

never let go...

and i never did
at times when you talk i just wanna cry
i want to be heard
talking may not be enough
i know it isn't
never will be enough
even in my deepest emotions i know i must see for myself
take hold of it what it is holding you
but not tighter for you may let it slip
or worse break it

i wont break it...

i promise you this
i hope you understand
i hope you feel
i hope we could be together one day
i hope we could hold our hands
i hope i could stare at you sleeping
i hope i could stare at you awake
i hope it would be forever
i hope it would be true

i'm hoping it from you

i want to hear what you have to say
please...

this is the salad of my emotions
this is food for my soul
this is what fills me
because i never want to be hungry again
ever...

a new chapter nga ba?

sana this is a new chapter na gud
ang pinag-iba nga lang, mey dumating

noon, mey umalis...
pero ok na din un umalis...
kasi mey bumukas na mas nice, mas astig, alam nya yun...

the one reason kung bakit ako nag ha-hang on sa ganitong existence...
binibigyan nya ako ng reason para mag pursige...
sana alam nya kung gano cya ka-importante sakin

kahit malayo pa siya, alam ko andito lang siya...
nasa tabi ko, nasa isip ko, nasa puso ko...
nyaks

nun parang korny pakinggan, pero ngaun...
i don't care...

kini ang gugmang giatay...
sana maintindihan ito ng nut2x ko...

Gugmang Giatay

buot kong ikaw masayod
og paminawon mo
kay kung pananglit, yam-iran mo
mga panumpa og pasalig ko
og kun ugaling
kalit kang mubiya
di ko kapugngan
walug ning mga luha

kay ikaw akong himaya
handumon ko matag karon og unya
ikaw langit og yuta akong pinangga

unya mihabol ang kangitngit
nga giduyugan sa ulan
ug sa kalit lang nahanaw
ang bidlisyo sa adlaw

oh kahayag...
sa imong panagway
nga naulipon sa gugmang giatay
inday paminawa, kabos kong gugma
nga kanimo akong igasa
dili ko man mahatag ang tanang bahandi
ning kalibutan
apan inday,
dungga intawn
ning alaot nga naulipon
sa gugmang giatay

Song of the Week for Me

Because You Live
Jesse McCartney


Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice calls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it though every storm
What is life, whats the use if your killed inside
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live