its been awhile

yes it has been awhile since i last posted, and the feeling sucks when you can't seem to let it all out when you need to. lolers financial constraints. well technically i am in it. but if i really want to get out of it, it would hurt my pride. better rot in hell than ask from mama. haha. and what's wrong with asking from your parents? well everything.
for one, im too old to ask. number two, i can look for a job now. which im doing by the way and successfully transferred from one call center to another. i hate call center-hopping. number three, i dont like asking money from them. it always starts a fight, or i get like a litany of all my sins, worst of all we never see each other. only rarely.
well basically im happy and content, but not. im happy cuz i finally know something very creepy it sends shivers down my spine. but its cool knowing it. haha. like i would tell anyone. im content cuz i finally am gonna have my own living once again. happy and content days are here again.
im not because i still feel something hollow inside me. maybe i need time and space. "i wanna go to manila" is still on my mind. i cant seem to place it. i wanna see you. like im talking to somebody.
its been awhile.
its been awhile since we talked. its been awhile since i last heard your voice. i hope i hear it again. bumili ka na nga ng celphone imok! well, ill move that priority up two places than previously. but still my main priority is to instill into children every evil deed there is. im mister evil mind you.
its been awhile.