The 3 o'clock Syndrome

All right, my shift starts at eight. But before that I have to set up my tools like ten minutes before I clock in. Good luck to me, I'm part of the opening shift. Like I get the first few people who have issues, I mean "issues".
By the time I have my first 15-minute break, I'm a bit dizzy from the calls. It is not easy listening to people's problems, you don't even know them yet they come to you for help. And the hard part is, you have to take them somewhere to get their problem solved. It would be better if you would be able to solve their problem right there and then. It would give you a sense of achievement, a sense of fulfilment.
Midnight arrives, I take my lunch. I'm not dizzy anymore, I'm drunk. Drunk of all the problems people have, drunk from all the information coming into my head, and drunk most of all from the information coming out of my head.
And the hardest part comes. The 3 o'clock syndrome. What happens on the 3 o'clock syndrome? I get booted out of my cubicle. I have nothing to do. I get to stay on the coffee lounge, thinking about all the problems I handled, thinking if I have taken them to the proper places. That's what bums me the most. Dammit.
Good thing I have my cigarette, my coffee mug, my lighter. And the fresh mountain breeze. It suits me well amidst all the pressure. Then I won't have to worry no more.

Two Nights Ago

never heard of you. don't talk to me. pretty much the things i said to somebody. i hurt someone. way different than before. maybe i hated too much. i must forgive. eew

two nights ago i got the time of my life. spent like two or three hours with that person and it really got me on highs. druggy you might consider but the hell

my body clock is all messed up. i mean its typical of me to be dripping saliva all over my bed for almost half the day but now i always seem to stand up automatically after five or less hours of sleep

dammit i stepped on someone's(not the same person on the first part) pride last night. to badmouth people is just nothing to me but now i realize it really is bad. duh

Losing People

I will miss Anuy. He introduced me to the wave. He was a person to talk to. Without apprehension. I realized thru Anuy that being perverted is not a bad thing, if you're not a virgin that is.
I will miss Tere. She understood me for my smoking habits. She taught me that people can really achieve when set your mind to it. Good luck with Aira. Have fun with her til it lasts.
I will miss Ate Anne. Never ran out of goodies inside her big pink bag. Will miss you for your big Spongebob hanky. With you exiting means no more food! Waaaa...
I will miss Orlie. Funny antics, gentleman at heart, role model father. You are so lucky to have a wonderful daughter. Will miss your talks about your 200 plus dogs. Someday I will hunt you. To buy a dog that is.

Drowsiness and Mood Swings

I'm having trouble controlling myself. Drowsiness really gets to me about 3 am and its not welcome. And suddenly after 4 its totally gone. Weird. Yes, weird as it may seem to me but its not for everybody else, not for any normal person.
Mood swings aren't welcome either. I mean in my kind of lifestyle any simple glitch in my system could really turn around the direction of my day. I mean it. Now it seems everybody at home just talks to me for the sake of. The sake of.
I may take it casually because they don't see much of me often. But deep inside it really does matter if they could just approach me with a simple inquiry of how work was, how my life goes by, I am self-centered I guess. But my life revolves around others. Kinda ironic.
Take me as I look and I am mean. Take me as I speak and think of others and I am totally insatiable. Take me as I am then you are mistaken.
Take me as I take you.

For Nows

Well I passed my MSV's tho the feeling is weird when u lose people. C'mon guys, staying in one room for nine hours for two weeks with twenty people does create bonds like tight. Sad to say I'm moving on without three of them, but hey! It's not the end of the world for them, I mean life has so much in store for them and once a door closes, windows open.
Next week for me, I think, is gonna be just a breeze. My first week as a solo floor agent will really test my multitasking skills but as with I've seen with the agents on the floor, it's pretty easy once you get the hang of it. I hope I get really good AHT's, I mean handling times, so I won't be forced to go on leave(shucks!).
Yesterday I had my left ear pierced. Finally. After so many years at oggling at people, especially guys my age, having their bodies pierced just about everwhere, I finally found something to suit me. Altho this is as far as I would go to embed something into my body, for now this is enough.
Finally I've had enough of Gudang's and DJ Mix's. I'm content with the reliable Marlboro Menthol for now. Next payday. I'm gonna try Cubans!

Newly Discovered Something Something

I came home late in the morning(how could that be?) and found out that it was a holiday. Of course I knew it beforehand, but wasn't expecting people would be at home. Maybe because I was setting things into my mind, like I have MSV's and one ISV coming up tonight. I really should have practiced wi-jacking on some veteran agents but then I presumed they were going to teach rather un-standard(?maybe improper) practices rather than the proper ones.

But then something caught my eye. It was there all along. I went through many hardships, many people went and gone, and still I haven't found solace. Duh, I said to myself. It was 18 years before me, I should have known. Eighteen years and I was so stupid for not realizing it until this morning. It was a "Something Something". Or a person. There all along, looking across me. Duh, I said to myself again.

Maybe I'm just overworking my thoughts. Maybe I am. Weird as it may seem, I get the mutual feeling towards me. And we're in the exact same situation. I guess, I hope.

I'm not yet ready for "Something Something". I know the history, I'm apprehending bad things to come, but as usual, its always "Something Something".

He really is sometihng

I admit

I was just not expecting other things

Oh my god I gasped... Her third Roland Garros and she's confirmed as the best woman clay court player at present. As usual, I was rooting for Sharapova but no, Safina put her on bay. Then I was rooting for Clijsters anyway but well, she even admitted Henin was just so far the best on clay.

Drizzling Sunshine All Over Hell

I just realized i'm really lucky...
Aside from the fact that I got a job that requires alot of patience,
perseverance,
and a whole lot of coffee,
I got myself a whole new wonderful experience!



If this were your typical Spongebob, you'd be really sure you're not in hell,
just drizzling sunshine all over hell...

Transmogrified

I felt this since I woke up
Maybe because of the fact that things never changed at all
I did
And it scared me
The most because I never woke up from that nightmare
The most because I will never wake up from reality
Im changed
I wish to remain the same
But I can't
I'm Transmogrified...