Ang Aso Kong Panget!

Si Masungit! baw
Arte mo! baw
Swapang ka bah? Baw
Ako, cute! Baw
Panget ka! Baw
Ano ako? Aso? Bawawaw
Pero...
Type ko yang si... Bawawaw

Eto In-edit ko na!

O sige na nga... Cute na kung cute!

Mey Iniisip

IKAW

Self-Review/Introspect/Autoscan

(*Mirror breaking) A nice break from all this brouhaha would be to stare at yourself at the mirror, just like what I did. And it broke. Shit. As I pick up the pieces of broken glass I notice I look better looking at myself in broken pieces rather than the whole mirror. Does this mean anything? Hopefully not. Hopefully yes. But I wish mirrors would reflect not only light but sound as well. Because when I said that cussing word it felt like someone else was speaking instead of me. Another person. As I reflect(*reflect lagi) on the previous shots of myself from past times, it felt weird to look at someone who looks too dissimilar to the one I'm looking at the broken shards of glass.

Another thing. It worries me that those who lost people seem to be happy of what has come. And I, someone who purportedly has it all, seem like deprived of everthing. Maybe I am just too showy. And they are not. Unfair. Cyd worries me because she should act as if the world has fallen down at her, yet she seems as if nothing has happened. And I try to console her with every emphatic sentence I learned from work:
"I'm sorry for your loss"
"I'm sorry for the inconvenience"
"I'm sure there is something we can do about it"
"Let me try to determine your support options"(woot!)
Maybe I am just too paranoid about it. I am paranoid. Fact. Undeniable.

Next week I will change. For the umpteenth time. I always say that. I hope I do. Maybe I need someone who can "sagpa" me in the face, "dapog" my lower back, "larot" my nape hair. But that specific someone never visits my site. Never, not even when I say so. "Lagot" is not what I feel, but "inis". Busy, we both work now. Far away, our lives are. Stupid, the things I dream to happen.

Maybe all this brouhaha is just the perfect recipe for breaking a mirror without even touching it. Try it. It could work you know.

The Songs That Fill The Void

Like I could listen to one song for the whole night. I could never do that. Songs for me are like moods. Whatever mood I am in, whatever song is playing in my head. And like songs, my moods last for as long as songs do. Somebody told me: "Mo, dili jud ko ka kuha sa imong aura, bisag unsaon nako wala koy makuha. Unpredictable lang gihapon." He's right. Maybe I'm best at hiding my thoughts, better yet my aura. I could be so jovial at times yet I could be so melancholic at most times. For the past week I felt myself contented with listening to the songs that play from my player. When I wake up I listen to:

Its You, Its Me by Kaskade
Selfish by Sunset Daze
Get It Together by India Arie
I'm Yours by Jason Mraz
Ever After by Bonnie Bailey

These songs fill me with inspiration to go on with the day. These are mellow yet prompt you to rise and do something good, for a change.
Lunch for me is sometimes at six in the evening, or twelve midnight. And most songs that flutter my ears are:

Happy by Ashanti
Im Real by Jennifer Lopez feat Ja Rule
Geek in the Pink by Jason Mraz
Control Myself by LL Cool J feat Jennifer Lopez
Say Something by Mariah Carey feat Snoop Dogg

As you can see, most of these songs are upbeat songs, songs that make put focus on beats other than lyrics. I don't mind the lyrics, just the beats that make my soul feel bumping. Laughs.

And what about dinner? I never have dinner. I just am content with nothing. As if someone is. I am. Maybe that is the reason why I never get fat, or fit.

Other songs?

Point of View by DB Boulevard
We Belong Together by Mariah Carey
What Can I Do by The Corrs
For You I Will by Teddy Geiger
and lots more...
These songs may be cheezy or unfit for a guy but hey, these are the songs that ring me.
Hope they ring everyone else too. :)

Ang Inamaw Nga Plano Ni Imok

Plano: OPLAN Alis Cebu/Alis Red AHT/Welcome K750i

Ay sus batia sa akong week oy. Feel gud nako malas kay: for one, wa ko ka-reach sa ako AHT goal. Syet limang kag 1 second nalang yellow na unta ko ngyawa! Red man lang gihapon. Cge lang maybe next tym I will reach yellow, even white. Jargon ni basta pasagda-i ang masulob-on og kinutlo. For two, wa nako mapalit ang akong dream phone this week. Mabaw ra? Naa pa. Next pa nako mapalit. Gusto pa mo? Nagpalit nalang kog MP3 player for this week. For three, murag hanap man ang paglaom nga madayon mi sa Panglao this Monday woist. Gaulan, gadag-om , gahilak ang kalangitan dahil wala ko mopalit og vitamins moo nang luspad lang gihapon ko. Gugma man cguroy pinaka tambal ani. Charing!
Another thing, syet kagamay sa akong sweldo woist, botoy jud akong bulsa ani inig next week bah. Mo-last long ba nako ang nahabilin nga 6k for two weeks? Inamaw. Di sakto, tag sais pesos lagi. Asa mang hustisa ani.
Praning. Ngippert. Mugna-mugna. Ayaw pag-boot, kay wala ka ka-abroad!
Perfect!!!

Schizo Right Beside Me, At My Left

I hope all the plans that I have are gonna come true:

1. Panglao next week with my team mates at work. Sana mey mangyaring scandalous! Anywayz beach naman yun so malamang. Between Mojo and Krism? Talaga!
2. Sheesha with Neil and whoever wants to come along. Coz' it looks so cool, I can only imagine myself looking like a god from ancient Hindu mythology puffing large amounts of smoke. Bwahahaha!
3. Puerto Galera with Natnat this mid-August. One-on-one para walang istorbo! No one is to come along para mey mangyari! I dunno, maybe we're gonna change plans to Boracay.
4. Speaking of Boracay, maybe this sem break with Socy and everybody. We are gonna go there as a group and leave as individuals, survivors!!! Evil intentions? Nope, Mabuhay ang di marunong lumangoy!
5. Quad-Bike or Scooter or Motorcycle? Still haven't decided but anywayz I will buy one of those within this year. I get so frustrated now with not being able to ride a jeepney immediately.

I'll just keep updating this para people will know...

Another Newly Discovered Something-Something

Depends on the mood, on which I am not on today, I scour for unintended tantrums.
Stupid questions, stupid answers. And yet I find myself quite unfamiliar with ugly people. Inside and out. Yesterday was a day for crumpled bed sheets, painful wake-me-ups, and tasteless cigarettes. And it was also a day for having no loose change. Takes me awhile to get used to this kind of lifestyle but I'm getting the hang of it. Six pesos per ride would be ok, but if the necessity arises, pay sixty bucks to get there at exactly the same duration. Dammit. Why does it have to be like that? Why do things turn out the way you expect it? I hate that. Because I expect things to turn out reverse direction. Good luck to me.
And then the newly discovered something-something...
Slaps you in the face so hard you feel dizzy. Catching you off guard so unhandedly you trip over. There right across me. And I'm so damn smoking. Wishing for permission, the eyes seem to do. They say yes, I believe. And turns away. Sh*t! Of all the reactions why does it have to be that way? Why for me? It could be for another guy. No, not for me. So the tactic to catch the attention arises. I approach to a person so near, I said: "How're you? I saw you yesterday with this guy. What were you doing together?"
The reply: "Nah, we were just hangin out. Had a few bottles of beer. Why didn't you approach me? I could have gone with you. It was so damn boring. Had nothing to do then. You're so "arte" you never approached me and could have taken me away from that decrepit place."
The reaction to this reply: "Really? I'm so sorry. Next time I see you I will approach you."

What a f*cking lousy answer! So damn stupid Zeus could have gone haywire over me. And this is all because of the cigarettes. Shouldn't have had them so early in the morning. So stupid.
Resolution: No cigarettes after shift. Period.